So we can rest

Amal Minshawi

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16 March 2023

We grieve for them when we open the doors of our hearts and homes, in good faith according to their desires, and their strong winds come to us, harsh, cold, destructive. We love what they love and nose what they nose and we anticipate the tightness of their chests so that our chests narrow as tight and tight. We see the world with their eyes, we love their perfume and their favorite songs, we forget their presence, we celebrate only when we are with them, we postpone all the sweet days for their eyes, we close our eyes to the beauty of the universe in anticipation of them.

We are happy for their happiness and we prepare at any time to receive them and introduce them to ourselves and make them an exception and sufficiency alone and wait for their question and call, even if only in the middle of the night, to check on them. We admire them alone with sweet words, and we appeal to the expressions of friendliness in their voices, and we seek excuses and create them to throw out our minds that reject their actions.

We disobey in their love all the pleas of wisdom and advice to leave, justify their follies with us, and give them one opportunity after another no matter how much they have enough.

We are hostile to those who genuinely love us and lavish us with affection for nothing, and we see no life except next to them.

These are the poisonous feelings and relationships that we sometimes cling to, even though they destroy and do not build, take and do not give and perpetuate mistakes as long as we accept them, and do not keep a covenant or observe a prayer or righteousness.

One-sided feelings and relationships drain time, age and health, create lasting regrets and ask an eternal question that haunts our comfort every moment: How did we allow and why did we kiss?

Love must be matched by love and friendliness with friendliness, friendship and sincerity with their ideals, and good neighborliness for those who do well to do it.

A hand outstretched with goodness and peace needs someone to shake hands with it, not someone to loosen his hand and turn his face away from it, and we all need to feel our worth in the eyes of our loved ones: a husband, a son, a brother, a friend or a neighbor, no matter how much we hide that need behind pride.

We need to teach ourselves and our children that souls are soldiers and life is vast and does not stop at a person or relationship, and that the choices of fate are always better, so we should never look for those who are deliberately absent from us, or continue with those who do not look like us, or accompany those who harbor evil or wish us harm.

Poisoned and unequal relationships, which meet friendliness with estrangement, only need us to stay away and retreat to the wounds until they heal, forget the faces and situations, and cherish psychological peace to maintain the purity of our chests, not weakness or defeat but "until we rest".

Poisonous and unequal relationships, which meet friendliness with estrangement, only need us to turn away and turn to the wounds until they heal.

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